It's ironic how I was trying to write an essay about happiness just now but in actual fact, I'm feeling all messed up and crushed inside like I'm being trampled upon. HURT and PAIN. And no, it's not about relationships. It's about people, life and attitude.
I asked myself, "What constitutes a good leader?". Found that I have no answer to it and totally make up a bad one. I'm filled with guilt. Seriously. Failure to lead, guide and to have those qualities of a leader. It was heart-wrenching to see everyone's emotions taking a dive into the sea of disappointment and unhappiness. Could I have prevented it if I had done something earlier? Perhaps.
Give up, Irdayu. I can't do it. I've failed.
These words are stucked in my mind like a mantra. But I chanced upon an article while researching for the essay. 'Don't be afrad to fail'. It hit me. No self-pity. No procrastination. I'm gonna picked myself up from here and not succumb to failure. There are things that need to be proven to certain people out there. May not be in my best form but soon I will. Or so, I believe.
It is on our failures that we base a new and better success.
Dear Allah, please give me strength to overcome this and be a better person.
I asked myself, "What constitutes a good leader?". Found that I have no answer to it and totally make up a bad one. I'm filled with guilt. Seriously. Failure to lead, guide and to have those qualities of a leader. It was heart-wrenching to see everyone's emotions taking a dive into the sea of disappointment and unhappiness. Could I have prevented it if I had done something earlier? Perhaps.
Give up, Irdayu. I can't do it. I've failed.
These words are stucked in my mind like a mantra. But I chanced upon an article while researching for the essay. 'Don't be afrad to fail'. It hit me. No self-pity. No procrastination. I'm gonna picked myself up from here and not succumb to failure. There are things that need to be proven to certain people out there. May not be in my best form but soon I will. Or so, I believe.
It is on our failures that we base a new and better success.
Dear Allah, please give me strength to overcome this and be a better person.
Insya'allah.
