AYU okay?

2010-02-27T01:36:00.006+08:00

It's ironic how I was trying to write an essay about happiness just now but in actual fact, I'm feeling all messed up and crushed inside like I'm being trampled upon. HURT and PAIN. And no, it's not about relationships. It's about people, life and attitude.

I asked myself, "What constitutes a good leader?". Found that I have no answer to it and totally make up a bad one. I'm filled with guilt. Seriously. Failure to lead, guide and to have those qualities of a leader. It was heart-wrenching to see everyone's emotions taking a dive into the sea of disappointment and unhappiness. Could I have prevented it if I had done something earlier? Perhaps.

Give up, Irdayu. I can't do it. I've failed.
These words are stucked in my mind like a mantra. But I chanced upon an article while researching for the essay. 'Don't be afrad to fail'. It hit me. No self-pity. No procrastination. I'm gonna picked myself up from here and not succumb to failure. There are things that need to be proven to certain people out there. May not be in my best form but soon I will. Or so, I believe.

It is on our failures that we base a new and better success.

Dear Allah, please give me strength to overcome this and be a better person.

Insya'allah.

2010-02-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

Haaachoom here! Haachooom there! Haachoom everywhere!
It's only after the first day of orientation and im getting sick.
Weak ah ayu.

Really really hope I'll get beter in a few hours.
Or at least pause this flu and cough vibe until after wednesday.
Pretttttyyy pleaaaase.

Salam

2010-01-31T13:20:00.004+08:00

As much as I switched off during SPIB class yesterday due to lethargy, there was something the facilitator said which I registered into my mind.

"Allah will not burden someone beyond his capabilities. When we are lost or depress, remember that His help is near."

Then I chanced upon a song while researching for my Malay essay. It had a sudden impact on me as I can relate to it during moments like this.

Mencari Yang Maha Satu
Munsyid : Unic feat Cat Farish

Terkapai-kapai diri dihanyut arus waktu
Kegelapan hati yang sering buat ku keliru
Dalam menguji pergolakkan emosi diri
Tak siapa tahu ada yang memerhati

(Mencari yang Maha Satu itu yang ku tuju)

Di dalam menjalani tiap dugaan yang diberi
Membawa pengertian hidup yang abadi
Tanpa perlu menipu diri sendiri
Yang menjadi lumrah duniawi

Seandainya kau yang memberi ruang
Akan ku baikki setiap kekurangan
Oleh itu diri yang memerlukan
Petunjuk darimu oh Ilahi

(Kau yang Maha Satu)

Diriku kini masih tercari-cari
Jawapan misteri tiap persoalan ini
Ku akui kesalahan dibuat segalanya
Gelap jadinya jiwa seadanya

(rap)
Ku cari terus ke situ
Itulah lampu hidupku
Terangilah gelap hatiku
Ku pohon restu dariMU

Akan ku baikki setiap kekurangan
Oleh itu diri yang memerlukan
Petunjuk darimu oh Ilahi

(Kau Yang Maha Satu)

Apabila tersilap langkahku
Tiba-tiba berbisik namaMu oh Ilahi
Terdetik di hatiku untuk sujud ke pangkuanMu
Memohon ampun dariMu

Dan selanjutnya ku tergoda lagi
Dunia ini yang sesat membunuhkan jiwaku
Kini ku mengakui teguranMu
Yang membuat ku sedar siapa diriku ini

(rap)
Tak semua yang sempurna nasihat di jalan yang lurus
Cerita yang dijadikan cerita
Dengan izin Yang Maha Esa yang wujud
Aku cinta dan cita
Segala yang ada bermula dari rasa resah
Aku akui harapan kasih dan hasratku tak setajam itu
Yang tak mampu risau lidah mudah di banjari
Fitnah melilau-lilau
Tuhan lindungilah dia dari kata-kata jahat itu
Doa-doa di pohon sentiasa setiap masa
Ampunilah dosa-dosa semasa daku ke sana
Dewasakanlah pemikiranku yang tak semegah mana
Salah silap ku berkarya tak pernah ku salah guna
Kau Yang Maha Satu (4x)

Salam

2010-01-31T00:05:00.002+08:00

OHMYMAMA.
These few days had been CRAZY with the goods and the bads.

Wednesday being the worst, filled with scoldings, tears and feelings of disappoinment.
Thurday passed very quickly but THAT stare made me guilty.
Friday was a 'prelude' of orientation. Awesome much! Not forgetting the rush from pasir ris to dover to watch a show at SP. 'An is such a talented dood!
Saturday was just another suuuuper busy day and my body battery just went flat.

2010-01-25T22:26:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I'm capable of overcoming all these temporary minor challenges.
Yes, they are not as bad as what others might go through but still, it's heavy.
Then again, I believed that Allah will not test us with challenges that are beyond our capacity to handle.

I hope for His guidance so that everything will turn out successful.
Please don't let me be a letdown to those around me and myself.

Salam

2010-01-17T12:51:00.002+08:00

There was truth in whatever was said yesterday.

If we lost our loved ones, we'll cry, we'll tear, we'll be sad. Why? Because they took care of us, they are our source of strength and support and we'll miss them. But the twist was that, who enabled them to do such selfless things? It was Him but had we ever cried so bad because we missed Him?
I was strucked.

What happened to standing out from the crowd? Sometimes, blending in is easier. But yet again, we shouldn't be blinded by our surroundings such that the fine line between the right and the wrong had faded away.

I love how Shyieka and I talked about life or society issues sometimes. SPIB never fails to make me realise the hidden truth.

Like A Kid

2010-01-16T10:06:00.004+08:00

As I lay beside her out of exhaustion, she stroked my hair with tender loving care.
A mixture of feelings evoked in me. I felt as if I was a small girl again. And being that small girl, it reminds me of yayi.

At the very mention of yayi, my heart beats faster. The person whom I missed so dearly cos I'm a his girl. Whenever she asked "Do you remember what he said or did for you last time?". Disappointment sank into my heart. There's not much that I can remember since I was too young at that time. But one thing that I took from him when he went away was his love. Safely kept until now. Lately, she had been telling me alot about what he said thirteen years back. He is one man who is ever so confident about my capabilities. This year is the time for me to fulfill his hope. The question is, "Can I do it?"

Sometimes, I'm not even confident of myself.
Dear Allah, pls let me have some faith in myself to overcome this.

Salam

2010-01-13T23:40:00.006+08:00

And the champion is..... TRITON!
The moment was ecstatic and euphoric. Everyone was in exaltation as they bounced their butts off the ground and just scream and scream. There was even tears of joy. The hardwork of the whole house had paid off.

Nevertheless, I thought that all the other houses were great too. Callisto, Phobos, Miranda and Atlas. All in all, open house was another happening event in MJC.

Alhamdulillah.
My second super duper happy day consecutively.
Salam.

My sweet surrender to your songs

2010-01-12T23:45:00.012+08:00

A first post in 2010 shall be a nice one. The happiest I've been so far in 2010!

IN LOVE

in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love in love

WITH...

Isa Abdillah's songs.
The way he sang & the way he smiled was WHOAA.
Thank you for the awesome time.
I'm too happy to sleep now. Or maybe, I'll bring his songs into my dreams.

Salam.

2009-12-31T00:48:00.005+08:00

3 days JB
2 days Family Picnic
3 days Batam
4 days JB
Spending the last bits of my school holidays like this is hell tiring yet I'm loving it.

During Picnic...
"Which school are you from?"
"Meridian JC. Yourself?"
"Ohmygod. these mindfreaks. Your guess?"
"Poly?"
"Nopes. I'm from U.... U-NEVER-STUDY."
A friendly & hilarious chap. A passer-by in my life. A split second friend whom I'm grateful to know.

Salam.

2009-12-27T19:05:00.004+08:00

You make me feel appreciated.
You always showered me with care & concern.
You are forever being patient with my nonsense.

It was great chatting with you after the few years we both disappeared from each other.
Thank you for being such a nice and sweet friend, Firdaus. In fact, a thank you is just not enough for everything. Have more faith in yourself alright. Eventually, things will turn out fine.

Salam

2009-12-27T12:52:00.005+08:00

I'm like waaaaaaaay behind time or whatever you call that.
But who cares.

We watched New Moon the other day and can't stop going gaga. Honest truth, we were paying attention on our gorgeous boyfriends more than we did on the storyline itself. Gees. "I think the werewolf is hot!" I practically meant the werewolf at one point in time. Not Taylor Lautner or whoever. Ohh, and too bad Mr. A is already taken :(

Next movie to aim... AVATAR!
Again, I think I will get to watch it only after the craze over this movie has died down.
Oh wells.

Salam

2009-12-19T23:54:00.004+08:00

Just the other day had a wonderful day with Syafiqah.
And oh girl, 2 trips are certainly not enough. Gotta feeling we'll visit THAT place again?

Hotpark the Hotspot(:

Thanks alot to you and your family for 'adopting' me for a few hours while I was 'stranded' and aimless today.
Really grateful and sorry for the trouble!

Salam

2009-12-15T19:29:00.003+08:00

People say...
It will be okay in the end.
If it is not okay, it is not the end.

But how do we even know if we have reached the end?

Or worse still, what if it has no end?

Sometimes we tend to worry about things that we are unsure of.
As humans, it is natural.

Do you call it negative perceptions or necessary precautions?

Salam

2009-12-14T12:37:00.007+08:00

Is this true or false?

Sometimes, we strongly chose to believe that yes, this is the case.

But then again, if money really can't buy you happiness,

Why are we happy when we buy new stuffs?
Why did people frown when they are moneyless?

Why did arguments spark due to money matters?

Maybe it is transitory happiness. But isn't it these little happiness that give us an everlasting one?
Or maybe sometimes, we just forgot to be contented with what Allah has given us?
Just another random thought.

Salam

2009-12-13T19:49:00.004+08:00

I was finding meaningful songs and chance Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen).

Not really awesome tune but awesome advices.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now...

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; Oh never mind, you will never understand the power and the beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in twenty years, you will look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now, how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future or worry that know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.

The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind. The kind that blindsides you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.
Don't be reckless with other peoples' hearts (but sometimes, it just happened subconciously); don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy,

sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults.

If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters; Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the "Funky Chicken" on your 75th wedding anniversary.

Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either.

Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body.
Use it every way you can, don't be afraid of it or what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance (Oh yeah, it makes me feel better).
Even if you have nowhere to do it but your own living room.

Read the directions even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings (This, is really hard). They are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go. But a precious few, who should hold on.

Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, for as the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.

Live in northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.
Accept certain alible truths: prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old and when you do, you'll fanaticise that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse but you'll never know when either one will run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're forty, it will look eighty-five.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.

Advice is a form of nostalgia.
Dispensing it is a way of wishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling for more than it's worth. But trust me on the sunscreen.

Everybody's Free, oh yeah, to feel good, ohhhhh, to feel good.

Salam

2009-12-10T23:39:00.010+08:00

And to me,
even if a hundred hearts scream,
it is never audible enough to tell your loved ones how much you miss them.

I MISS...
ThreePee'07 *Cedar Outstanders *MLDDS *Fat Clique *Shalu Bubu *Shyieka
*Ain *Rasy *Siti *Muslihah *Nana *Firdaus *Aizah Platypusy Spaghetti *Athirah
*Aishah Badak Burger *Amirah *Dalila *Amira *Zakiah BERUS

*MY MAN*

...ALOT

You spin my head right round right round...

2009-12-09T17:02:00.006+08:00

Post the video here for keepsake.
I never failed to laugh/smile whenever I watched this :D
Really grateful to be in the same island as you guys.

I'm looking forward to the encore for this,
SPINARELLA!

smiiiiiiiiiile!

2009-12-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

I THINK THIS PICTURE IS DAMN COOL PLEASE.

DON'T YOU THINK SO?

No matter how many people turn their back against you,

sometimes you just need to move forward and smile because there is always someone out there who likes you for who you are (:

2009-11-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

Awww. Those cute innocent times!

But I think the very last time I did that was this year's Aces Day?

Haha. Perangai budak-budak.

Randomzzz

2009-11-22T17:19:00.010+08:00

Let's see.

It has been a month plus plus since I last updated.

I shall mention the main higlights here for keepsake.

18102009

Simfoni Filem Nusantara

The performance was AWESOME PAWESOME! For a 14 bucks ticket after discount and 2nd row, what more can i asked for? See, the benefits of a sastera student(; Hitam and Putih have witty characters that was really amusing. Taufik was being 'NAUGHTY' with his cheeky moves and expressions when he sang 'Pencinta Wanita'. Rossa and Intan were simply gorgeous and friendly, especially during the autograph session. Fuad's 'Isabella' song was tiptop. Freaaaaaking good! Ohmyohmy. And on top of that, there was a talented violin/gambus musician. MELTSSSSS YYY Okay, that's it! I'm gonna join OMS. Haha. Like real only Ayu, you cannot even play any intruments for goodness sake! (:

25102009

Terrace Garden

Apparently, Syafiqah and I walked, walked and walked at Far East till our legs felt like jelly. So we crack up our heads and think of where to go next. Cos usually the main highlight when we go out is to take pictures at a nice place. And so, I called Hafiz to ask for directions to a particular place. Our plans are always impromtu. Right Syaf? But an irritating person kinda spoiled my fun abit on that day.Oh wells, here are the pics.

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Leadership Training Camp

This camp is THE BOMB! Compared to any other camps that I attended so far. Objectives met but yet enjoyable. It really drilled the 5 practices of being a good leader right through our heads. Aniway, I was in Group 3, specifically LURBE LURBE! haha. How cute is that? I love the way we were all hyped up and bonded within minutes when we reached the campsite. As for the main activities, one of them was Laser Combat, where we carry snipers ranging from 2++kg to 4++kg, charged and 'killed' others. Then there was this race thingy and supposedly we had to run around the Lim Chu Kang area. But my group ended up hitch a ride on a lorry to the furthest checkpoint. Thanks to Abg Janggut who initially wanted to ask the lorry driver for directions only. He ended up asking for a ride too. hmmm, maybe he's taking initiative you may say? Geees. The last activity was water rafting which really made our sweats drip like a tap water while building the raft. There was alot of maintenance after the trials but we persevered through and succeeded together with the other Major A groups. And finally was the campfire! Seriously the best. Never had a campfire which is THAT happening. Hilarious stuffs and memorable one too. I think all groups had pretty good camfire items. I shan't elaborate abt my group's campfire item. I'll only PAISEHFIED myself. Haha.

Bouncing Fun!

2009-10-11T22:51:00.006+08:00

Over last few days, had an overdose of ecstacy.

No worries. They are harmless.

Too much fun, laughter and love.

Mainly due to the jalan raya.

And of course, bossaball.

If you want a sport that makes you happy even if you're tired, this is the sport for you!

You just can't stop bouncing and that will make you happy. If not for you, well it works for me.

Okay. But the worst part was to jump, Jump and JUMP and then... PIAAAAK! landed on the ground REAL HARD. Even so, I just continued laughing when people asked "ARE YOU OKAY???". I was too happy, seriously.

haha! Godknows why.

Oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnn!

I don't want tomorrow to come.

Bye to happiness, Hello to sadness.

Here comes the paper monsters!!!

When it comes again.

2009-10-10T10:26:00.011+08:00

This feeling.

This vibe.

This aura.

A feeling of losing someone.

A feeling which made my heart sank deep.

I don't know why but it just comes when I am alone.

I kept thinking of the people around me.

Those who had injected love into my soul.

Made a human out of a person.

YOU.

You drifted away from me years ago. You left me hanging on your love. I wish I could have known you better. Not through their stories but through my own moments with you. You're used to be the very first one to defend me when I'm hurt, when I'm down. You hugged me, you kissed me in front of their envious eyes. Wherever you are, please watch over me. I don't wanna let your hope down.
I MISS YOU.

YOU.

You're the disciplined and strict man in my life. I know that deep down, you've always love us but it's hard to say. Thanks for everything that you've been doing. I'm grateful to have you. I apologize for the times I had let you down. Although sometimes it's hard for you to understand things, I'm contented that you carried your responsibility.

I LOVE YOU.

YOU.

I idolise you, for your strength, your courage. You had to go through alot. I may not be able to understand your hardship but I do feel it. I know that you're often hurt like a knife being stabbed into your already wounded heart. Yet you hid those tears beneath your facade. I don't know what I will do without you. You had to care alot for others. You told me "No one cared for me". Silently in my heart, I denied,
I CARE FOR YOU.

To my loves,

may Allah bless you.

Up and Down

2009-09-13T20:38:00.009+08:00

Tired and drained.

Physically and mentally.
At the thought of school tomorrow is enough to make me even more ill.

Sometimes, we question why must there be ups and downs in life.
Little do we realise that they are what that balance us.
It is those up moments that made us appreciate life.
It is those down moments that made us grateful for it.
Perhaps, they're just God's creation that makes one a human.

I was disturbed and distracted.
It may not be my problem directly but indirectly, yes it is.
We love you and all we wanted it the best for you.
But why resort to those actions?
Till now, I can't seem to truly find the reason to look up to you. Im sorry.
I just hope that some day, You'll be able to choose the right path with His blessings.
& that you'll be a great loving idol in my life.

And you!
You greeted me with a good news the next day.
It may not directly affect me but indirectly, yes it does.
I'm contented that you finally manage to pull through that paper.
Not just because you're buying me new shoes as promised, I'm glad that you'll be able to complete your diploma.
You have shown me a spectacular display of resilience and determination.
Alhamdulillah(:

These three words may be hard to utter.
But you know that deep down, I Y YOU BOTH.
Dear Allah, please guide both of them for a better life.

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2009-08-22T14:00:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah, the meritorious month of Ramadhan is here. Let's embrace ourselves and strengthen our faith towards Him and hopefully we'll be rewarded with His blessings. Insya'allah. I hoped for a better Ramadhan this year.

Selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa! :D

Syurga Cinta

2009-08-17T23:50:00.003+08:00

Subhanallah. I think this is another great movie that I watched this year. I was fascinated with the storyline and the emotions that emerged from this story is extraordinary, personally for me. A beautiful and pure love story which is acompanied by Islamic values and teachings. In my opinion, it is meaningful because it triggered me to think about people, Islam and love. I know there are people who read my blog anonymously without tagging. You know who you are kay people(: So yea, this is another movie that I recommend you to watch.

Some quotes from the movie which intrigued me:

"Jadilah seorang wanita dalam bekas kaca yang sukar disentuh. Hanya orang yang mampu sahaja boleh memilikinya"

"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari. Dia datangkan petir & kilat. Kita tertanya-tanya ke mana hilangnya matahari. Rupa-rupanya Allah memberikan kita pelangi"

"Adakah kita hendak menjadi Islam yang difaktorkan atau Islam keturunan sahaja?"

"Jika seseorang itu hadir dalam hidup saya & menjadi sebahagian daripada hidup saya tetapi terpaksa meninggalkan saya, jangan bersedih. Terima kenyataan itu kerana sekurang-kurangnya dia pernah membahagiakan saya. Saya redha."

Ayu nak bercinta macam gini laa. Tapi zaman sekarang macam impossible gitu.

Dahlaa ayu, jangan banyak mimpi ehh.

Randomsss

2009-08-16T00:02:00.005+08:00

This post marks the official 100th post (:

So Im gonna share something new that I learnt today,

LET BYGONES BE BYGONES,
LET SHEILDTOX BE SHEILDTOX.
Credits to Syam!

Geddit? Geddit?

I can't stop laughing.

On another note,

HAPPY SEVENTEEN ATHIRAH !

Sorry for the late post budak. I only manage to update today.
Anyhoos, may Allah bless you dearie and may you be rewarded in every way you deserved. Be happy always with your loved ones. Strive hard for Os and dont ever give up kay. You know you're capable of overcoming this small obstacle. Have confidence in yourself girl. Hope I'll have the time to meet up with you soon. Take care of yourself aite!
Love and Misses(:

RED & WHITE

2009-08-09T23:58:00.004+08:00

Okay, I call it a day in 2 minutes,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE(:

The shower of fireworks was magnificent.

The cramping of people in underpass was a disgust.

The long stretch of walking was exhausting.

The glimpse of unity was securing.

My first, celebrating it this way, but undoubtly a great one.

ROLLER COASTER-ed DAY.

Nong nong ago

2009-08-02T23:54:00.008+08:00

Let's reeeeeeeeewind to 6 years ago.

This is ultra classic.

I was astonished at first but kept watching it on a repeat mode. Gees(:

Presenting East Spring Primary Malay dance 2003 -Tittled: Dance of Joy

It didn't look joyful at all. Aiyaks.

Anyhuuus, thanks cicakkobeng for passing the link!

Screeewed

2009-08-01T04:23:00.007+08:00

Tick Tock Tiiiiiiiick Tooooock

Look at the time now. My biological clock is sooo screwed today.

Just had a morning shower. Slept for 3 hours till 9pm yesterday and am awake till now.

But on days that I urgently need myself to be awake to get work done, the mind and body just won't cooperate.
Thanks ah. Ayu, Ayu. Perangai one kind ahh.

Lup Dub Lup Dub
Gosh, in about 5 hours, there'll be parents-meeting session. Nevertheless, I told ibu about my grades. I expected her to like BOOM! at me but alhamdulillah she did not. I'll be expecting complains later, given my 'awesome' discipline and focus especially for tutorials. Now, it's not a question of whether I fit better in poly but more like whether I can make it to uni. Come to think of it, my life is mostly based on luck and takdir. Not really because my ikhtiar, seriously. It is a miracle to even scrape through Cedar and then enter Meridian. Even if I want to go poly, I know I can't due to many reasons. I realised my self-confidence is easily shattered since 4 years back. It's time to make a turn but I don't know how. I don't want this phase of life to be a repetition of how I was in secondary school. Dear Allah, pls guide me through.

Irdayu, you should..

A lot of things are going through my mind and it makes me hungry!
Haha. Okay, dah bye(:

To be cherished

2009-07-26T20:11:00.018+08:00

First and foremost,
congrats to Madrasah Aljunied Al-Islamiah for being the champions for Bahas 4PM 09.
Sad that I only manage to hear the pengulungs. Being such a slenge, as always, I was lost my way to mediacorp. Making things worst, my battery had to die on me. I didn't know where to alight exactly and thus resulted to looking out for Amira at each and every bus stop, who patiently waited on me. The nyonya beside me was irritated, I think. Haha.

Finally reached the bus stop but Amira and I got lost again when walking in to the place. Instead of going to TV theatre, we went to TV gate. Totally oblivious to the signboards.
"Ehh, kita sesat! dah laa lambat. macam mana ni??" "Alamak, tak tau ah. macam mana ni??"
Anyhoos, the day ended on a good note. With A B Shaik's humour, the meet up with bahas friends, group photos and it goes on. It was great.

Moving on to the next day,
1 DAY, 9 HOURS, 3 PLACES,
spent with Syafiqah the darling friend.
From Singapore River to Fort Canning and then to Esplanade.
I'll let the pictures bring you through the day.

There were actually people running across the whole stretch of Singapore river as the Liverpool made their river tour. Maha semangat to the maximum. In any case, the looooong wait was all worthwhile though im not really a football fan.

Then at fort canning, there was an anime cosplay. It was awesome and they look wow. We wanted to take pictures with them but then we thought we better not. From bright to shade, from PICTURES TO A PHOTOGRAPHER.
Dear Mr. Fluff, it's nice to see you. Misses.

ohhhohhh. And I love NAUFAL.
In midst of our lethargy on the way home, he revived us with laughters and smiles.
Syafiqah and I laughed till our eyes teary, our stomachs ache.
At his age, his vocabulary is toooo excellent for his own good.
He was cute, REALLY CUTE but if I were to have him as a kid brother, I'll just faint. hehs(:

TO SYAFIQAH,
Thanks alot dear. This is another moment to be chuck into my memory box.
LOVE YOU!

Alhamdulillah, I'm grateful for the good time I've been having lately.
However, Im still hoping to meet those I really miss.
God wlling.

OOOOUCH.

2009-07-23T21:50:00.010+08:00

Finally a real dance session in sucha long time.

Reviving. Refreshing. Reenergizing.

Liberated from all the stored fats in my body.

Ms. blister & Mr. muscle ache,

thank you for visitting me.

Yes it was a pain but I believe that along with it comes strength.

PAIN, literally and metaphorically.

And so, something made me think. I'll leave you with this..

Pain is temporary.
It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year,
but eventually it will subside and somehthing else
will take its place. However, pain lasts forever for a quitter because the pain of the mind is worse than the pain of the body.

With this, I deserve a reward.
Can't wait for friday night and saturday!

That's all for now.

Handball

2009-07-19T01:06:00.003+08:00

I miss playing handball. I really do.
But I guess it's time to say goodbye.
Best wishes for future games, girls.
Hope to see you playing for YOG. Gees :D

Intangible

2009-07-05T19:01:00.013+08:00

I've been indulging myself with malay films for the past few days. No idea why but one thing for sure, Kabir Bhatia really has my respect for his creativity and talent in making good shows. Namely, Sepi and Cinta. The latter is more complicated at the start but if you just watch till the end with patience, it is worthwhile when you understand. It potrayed the different kinds of love that we may have in life. In Sepi, there were 3 different plots but connected by a tragedy. Love Imaan's plot the best, an intricate twist to it. It is kinda backdated to watch it now but nevermind, better than never. What makes me like it more is the puisi in both stories. Both left me with a deep impact, seriously. Now, I'm hooked by the drama series, Nur Kasih, which is directed by the same guy. It is only at the first few episodes currently but had evoked many emotions.

SEPI
Bisikku pada bulan
Kembalikan
Temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia
Malam menemaniku
Sepi memeluk ku

Bulan jangan biar siang
Biar alam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi
Seperti ku

CINTA

Sering kita terlalai
Mengejar yang belum pasti
Hingga kita lupa meraikan
Satu-satunya perkara yang menjanjikan kebahagiaan

Cinta...
Yang lahir dari naluri
Menagih pegorbanan
Bersandar kesetiaan
Akhirnya tersimpul abadi

MIDDIES

2009-07-05T16:47:00.005+08:00

Finally freedom from middies.

It was boleh tahan.

Boleh tahan rabak.

I think I screwed it pretty bad.

Anihoos, went swimming with Syafiqah dear yesterday with her family. It was soooooo fun, considering I did not swim for aaaaaaaaaages. The last time was when I was in primary school I guess? Gees, pathetic kid. Obviously, I got tanner. When will i ever redeem my fairer skin tone? NEVER!

Lastly, i've taken everything into consideration. But still, stuck in a dilemma.

To quit it or not?

Dear Allah, pls guide me to decide what's best.

World's 27 Most Beautiful Mosque Photography

2009-06-22T21:43:00.008+08:00

I was intrigued as I saw those pictures of various mosques in the world.

Here are my top 5 picks:

Masjidil Haram, Makkah, Saudi Arabia

Masjid Al-Nabawi, Madinah, Saudi Arabia

Masjid Selat, Melaka, Malaysia

Masjid Cheng Hoo, Surabaya, Indonesia

Masjid Alamgir, Varanasi, India

Subhanallah. How beautiful can they be.

As I look at the first two pictures, the film of my life rewind to a decade ago. I remembered walking bare footed to and fro, a distance of just a few metres. I remembered crying my hearts out before the separation. Perhaps I was quite little to understand the situation and to fully grasp the intention of being there. However, the emotions and feelings just kept flowing through the nerves of my heart. That purity and sincerity.

But now, the only question I can ask myself is: What happened to me?

I'm sorry, I've sinned terribly.

Teman Sejati, Di Taman Hati

2009-06-22T20:34:00.007+08:00

I managed to watch bahas 4PM semi finals just now. It wasn't in my plan at first but perhaps I was fated to find out about it on the day itself, thanks to the NP team when I bumped into them at Macs. My brain was malfunctioning and it was blank when I chatted with those NP people because initially I forgot who they were. But I just continued chatting since they look like they know me until I figured out who they were eventually. Not that I forgot my friends but it's just that they weren't in my group for bahas camp and we never talked before. Alhamdulillah it was a good start. So anihoos, I was calling people to accompany me to watch my fellow friends bahas and sweet Dalila willingly came to Tampines library after much persuasion. Thanks Dalila! So what's next for finals? The awesome people from RJC and MA. Especially to dear friends, Naz and Rahmat, all the best to you guys! These two schools comprises of great debaters I must say. To those schools who didn't manage to make it to finals, please don't be disheartened because y'all did fabulous still.

Reminiscence.
I was blog-hopping and found bahas 4PM photos and a video montage(which I can't seem to upload). I realised how much I missed the Perkampungan Bahas from 29th-31st May. Made new friends, learnt new things and shared experiences. I missed the guidance of our facis. I missed the games that bonded all of us. I missed the ultra torturing and gruelling 8 rounds of bahas marathon(which we escaped a few of them, seriously exhausting). I missed to finger-licking good food on the last day. I missed how we deprived ourselves from beauty sleep just to prepare for bahas the next morning.I missed Wowlicious and our cute cheer. I missed everything. Not forgetting, special thanks to Kak Fiela from Malaysia who guided and helped unpack the topic when it was already nearing to 2am. I don't mind the fact that I had GP exam, the day after bahas camp ended and had to go to school with a zombified face. It was all worthwhile.

Ayu harap semua berada dalam keadaan sihat wal'afiat. Insyallah, kita bertemu lagi.
Salam Rindu.

"Kita bersama
satu suara
moga-moga
jalinan tanpa sempadan
jadi amalan
bahasa jiwa bangsa
menyatukan kita semua"
-montaj perkampungan bahas 2009

Advance Father's Day Show?

2009-06-18T00:40:00.005+08:00

Ayah was being cute in the afternoon.

I was munching away in the kitchen and suddenly his good mood striked.

He hummed a tune, did some gelek moves and followed by tango.

Haha. He's in his mid 50s, mind you.

It's like 'One Minute of Fame'.

Hmm. I pretty much get the idea where my passion for dance came from huh?

Remote-controlled love

2009-06-18T00:29:00.005+08:00

It made me think, upon being thrown this question by a friend.

"Would you let your boyfriend control you because of your love for him, if you have one?"

I guess, it's a NEHHHH. I believe everyone has their own personal dreams, goals and not forgetting principles. It's a fine line between controlling and guiding your loved one. Love doesn't entitle a person the right to control the other. In fact, controlling may just change the nature of someone. So much for loving the person for they way they are? I think, everyone deserves a freedom of choice in life. It is something that even your partner shan't control. No doubt, a mistake may be made in making choices but take it as a challenge and learn from it. After all, that's what you call life right? The outcomes of our life depends on how we control it and maybe the partner will take control if you permit because you have lost your own control.

And this friend told that perhaps I'll think twice about this if I find Mr. Right one day.

Yea, Insya'allah I'll stand by what I said and not change it.

Champions and Warriors

2009-05-28T16:46:00.002+08:00

What matters is that others love our routine and we love it too.

We may not be the champion but we have the heart of a champion in each and everyone of us.

Strucked, Yet Again

2009-05-25T01:19:00.006+08:00

LOSING TRACK. LOSING FOCUS.

I'm really losing it all. My goal, my aim, my vision. I'm not regretting this decision but just wondering if I'm gonna pull through. Perhaps it's time for me to rise up again to try harder. For myself and the loved ones. No way I'm gonna let them down again cos enough is enough. No way, I'm gonna let my confidence be stepped upon. No way my future is gonna be shoved to the dump.

Allah, please give me strength and guide me through.

Most importantly, I've been abandoning the love letter from YOU all this while. I apologize for being so ignorant to YOU. Sank myself in the sea of books but failed to even read YOURS. At least, I'm glad to have a weekly reminder of YOU through him. It made me reflect, it made me think. I've never think Saturday nights are a waste of time. I maybe losing track of YOU now but please pull me back by YOUR side. Don't make me stray away from YOU.

Just for you

2009-05-12T22:57:00.006+08:00

This post is dedicated to my beloved one.Though it is 2 days late, I think there's a need to put this up. Everyday is mother's day anyway, isn't it? Perhaps you won't read this ibu, but it's okay.

Ibu,
Terima kasih atas segala apa yang telah ibu berikan selama ini, terutama sekali kasih sayang. Maafkan kesilapan Ayu jika telah mengaibkan ibu. Kehadiranmu membawa seribu erti dan mungkin Ayu akan hilang arah tanpa ibu. Ibu akan sentiasa berada dalam doa Ayu dan semoga ibu tabah menghadapi semua dugaanNya.
Salam sayang,
Irdayu

"Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan untuk dewasakanku. Hanya bisa ditanggung oleh hati ibu. Namun kupercaya takkan terlerai kasih, ikatan ini takkan putus. Telah kau telan lara dan terima segala dugaan dan badai yang melanda. Duhai ibu" S.N- Air mata ibu

Appauled

2009-05-09T22:43:00.007+08:00

For us, what we are going through is already unbearable enough. How about them? Despite their disadvantages, they stayed strong and determined to live. Sometimes, much more than the able-bodied people. But why must certain people make it worst for those kids? Is human's nature to be blamed for how oblivious some people are? Or have their heart been blinded and their minds been blocked such that they dont know what's humanity? Absurd, totally absurd.

Dear Allah, thank you for the kind of life you've given me.

Gasping for air

2009-04-24T22:39:00.003+08:00

'Mamma Mia, here I go again'
Yesyes, here I go again,
Abandoning this tiny blogging space of mine.

There are so many things that i want to update.
This is the only medium for me to chuck my lifestories into my own memory box.
Yet time shows no mercy at all.
Therefore, to the very very best capability of my brain which has supremely little memory megabyte, I will briefly update on recent events.

NUS drama competition
My dears, congrats for winning the Anugerah Sajak Kreatif. Okay, I totally suck at this part. I had just reached NUS when suddenly a group of little girls came out from the backstage door and screaming in ecstasy. I missed their performance by a few minutes): No matter what it is, you will have my support all the way aites!

Tauke Wayang
The show was extraordinary. I simply love the storyline- simple, amazing and impactful. Personally, I thought it was better than Raden Mas the musical which I watched with Lili last year. Towards the end of the show, I actually felt tears welling up in my eyes. But of cos, 'kene maintain'(:

Singapore Youth Festival 2009
First and foremost to my alma mater, I want to wish you CONGRATS! Im proud of you girls, seriously. You have proved to the school that we are worth something and not only 'just a CCA', despite the attention given to MLDDS. You really deserved that Gold award. Following that, CONGRATS too to the Meridian MCS girls for clinching Gold award together. The months of practice, injuries, pain, sweat and fatigue was all worth it. Through all the obstacles that we went through and the test that Allah gave us on the day itself, we still made it through. Im grateful to be given this opprtunity to dance this SYF piece with all of you.

That's it.

2009-04-08T22:42:00.003+08:00

OKAY NOW. FOCUS, IRDAYU FOCUS.

A fullstop to this chapter and it's time for a new one.

Perhaps I shall end my posts with some two-liners as of today.

I prefer it to be in malay though.

So here goes the first one..

Mungkin kita tidak pernah sehaluan,

Tetapi jangan kau menyalahkan takdir Tuhan.

And I went GAAAAAH!

2009-03-24T18:13:00.006+08:00

SYF, SYF, SYF in exact 15 days!

We had rehearsal at UCC a few hours back.

I guess the dance was pretty okay, just that we need to inject more feel and energy?

And I had a few slips here and there. Aiyaks, I'll train harder and pray that it won't happen on real day itself.

Really hope the group manage to achieve gold award. Insya'allah.

Anyhoos, summarising my march holiday, IT WAS CRAZY.

Packed with dance practices, handball selections, semarak temasek and of cos, none other than school work.

But then again, I managed to attend GPA to watch dearest MLDDS girls. Y'all did great darlas. Never give up and try again next year alright. I enjoyed Sunday morning too. Yes, we were in ridiculous outfits and got all sorts of stares from people but it gave me that little spark of joy I needed before I started Term 2.

BUSY BEE!

2009-03-12T23:52:00.005+08:00

March holiday is here!

I don't even know if that's a good or bad thing.

Projects, Tutorials, E-learning and the list goes on..

Life = Chaotic, Pathetic, Hectic, Lunatic

Okay. I was prepared for a busy JC life but this is getting a little bit too overwhelming, maybe?? And I bet in term 2, it will be beyond imagination. But hey, never will I give up though I tend to have my set of complains about coping with school. And how I wish there are more hours in a day. To fit in school, umpiring, handball, SYF practices and blabla. Adding on to that, this 'budak tak tau duduk diam' wants try new activities somemore. Whatever it is, it was me who chose this path of life, so no matter how bad I suck, I won't regret and I will keep trying. The bright side is that I'm happy with my positive change of attitude towards studies. So contrasting from what I used to be. Alhamdulillah.

I chose JC for simple reasons:

1) My goals

2)To fulfill his wish

3) To prove myself of my own ability

On another note, are there any kind souls who can help me in H2 Chem?? Pretty pleaaaaaase?

Of course it's not all about stress. I get my daily dose of joy and laughters in school too. The STs and great company, especially my sunshine babes in 501 and MCS ghurls. Ohh, just a brief update about MCS last wednesday, we were guessing peribahasa through playing charades. Dengan penuh MAHA confidentnye, there was a girl who shouted the answer: "seperti cina masak babi..!". Guess who's that 'smart' girl??! -winks-

Lastly,

HAPPY FIFTEEN MUSLIHAH MUJTABA!

Sickling

2009-02-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

According to Azie,

IRDAYU sounds like 'Eeeee-Dah-Layu!!!'

Which I can't help but agree to it ONLY for the past few days.

I've been moving around like a zombie for the whole of today.

Ami and all were saying it's so unlike me.

Nevermind, I shall come back to life by tomorrow!

Confirm tak confuse (:

MJC??

2009-02-15T21:25:00.009+08:00

This space has been rotting for about 2 weeks already.

So here's a fresh post.

Ibu: MJ untuk ape ehh? Michael Jackson! Mak Janda pun boleh.

Ayu: Hahaha. 'Thanks' ibu.

Friends have been asking how's JC life for me and I simply replied "fine, fine. very fine" (: but according to Shyieka, I'm too chillax as compared to some other JC students. I think they're putting uneccessary pressure on themselves. Gees.

Perhaps I shall start the ball rolling by elaborating more about FORTITUDE- the theme for MJC orientation 2009. The opening ceremony was awesome as the principal abseiled down the wall with her WHEEs and WHOOs! That building is seriously quite high. It's even lovelier when she mentioned that...

"I won't be doing this if all of you are not my Meridian students."

Awwww, sweetness.

Cutting the story short, throughout the 3-day orientation, we had ORA(Operation Red alert), MMM(Mass Meridian Monopoly) and GMS(Great Meridian Siege). Basically, the whole thing is about the kings and queen of the different houses losing their powers and each house had to get it back by playing games to gather clues, run around Singapore like a crazy bunch and battling with other houses. Interesting much huh? Yes, i know.

What that made it more enjoyable was that my OG was accompanied by lovely people namely, daddy jen hun, mummy shirlene, pretty yun jie, macho jon and hyper rebecca. And being the best OG, *ehem!* we had our very own creative cheers which made some OGLs impressed. The one and only. Se-Se-riously(: However, pretty sad that Nuzul and Nikki had to shift class and house cos of their appeal. Aiyerr, traitor laa Nuzul. Hehs.

Like any other students who had orientation, of cos I got my fare share of sexy voice too. BUT! I had a bonus the very next day. A blue-black art was prettily painted right on my cheek. A BRUISE. Like as if I was boxed by someone. Gees. Padahal-padahal. The reason? For me to know, for you to find out :D

Hello! new school

2009-02-01T21:56:00.007+08:00

jeng! Jeng! JENG!

roughly around 8 more hours...

before school starts

before I advance to a new phase of life

before I embrace new challenges with much courage

I think I'm prepared for it all. I realised how foolish I was all these years to drill these words into my head:

"I'm scared, I'm afraid".

Stupid isn't it? When actually those words will only hold me back from doing my best and restricting my capability. I really missed how I was back in primary school. It's like I don't care what others have to say. I just gave my best shot and whatever happens, I'm proud of myself. However in secondary school, I got so affected by peoples' words that I finally end up in a downward spiral and stucked at the bottom. Even though I'm grateful for those improvements I made, I realised I wasn't genuinely happy because I know deep down that I could have been better. So yea, I know that what's past is past and that it's a new beginning for me. Insya'allah, I'll make the best of this opportunity and no matter what, I'll promise myself to go all out for it. So what if there's hundreds of them out there who scored better than me? I'm not competing with them. I'm actually competing with myself, for my parents and myself. And to the very special person up there, this is for you too. Love you and miss you alot.

Thanks to Mr Chan for knocking some senses into me.

Ayu: Mr chan, I'm scared. My aggregade was bad.

Mr chan: For what you are scared?? No use! Now that you're in a jc, just do your job and study. Try your best and hopefully you can get into university.

Now, I believe that...
I know I can
Be what I wanna be
If I work hard at it
I'll be where I wanna be

- I Can lyrics, Nas

Time machine

2009-01-30T00:50:00.011+08:00

Last Sunday & Monday, I felt as if I was traveling in a time machine which brought me all the way back to the night of 090808. So to SOMEONE, if you come across this post, it is dedicated to you alright.

We were strangers back then and not a proper sentence was exchanged. Although it was a short moment, it was memorable enough to last in my mind. But hey, who would have thought that we were having the same feeling, the same vibe for the last couple of months. Oh why must things get complicated now? Maybe, it’s because I’m not as simple-minded like how I used to be. Guess I’ve toughen up myself now. Guys, haha. Not an easy task to trust them. And yes, I have my fare share of doubts in relationships because according to a friend, relationships spoils love which I can’t help but to agree. I’m not as gullible or as dumb anymore as to be moved by I LOVE YOUs or sweet talks because it’s the actions that show. I think I really had learnt my lesson. But it’s the same toughness that is tormenting me deep inside. Never had I experience joy and pain like this, at a single moment. Joy because you gave me the gift of smiles whenever I talk to you. Pain because I'm in denial about whatever emotion that I have towards you. I'm sorry that I made you a victim, causing you to suffer a lot in the process. You said you've got a sincere heart, so prove it alright. I know you're down-to-earth but please don't stoop yourself too low. Instead, why dont you shift those energy and put something into action. As days passed, I'm thinking more and more about you despite knowing I shouldn't be like this. Now, even your mood affects me. how? How? HOW?

Ya Allah, please give me strength and solution to overcome this.

__ __ __ __ __

__ __ __ __ __ __

__ __ __ __ __

Go figure out.

Puisi

2009-01-29T13:51:00.008+08:00

Sayangs, I want to share this with you.

I love it alot. Emotions so pure and she delivered it so sincere. Really touching.

Here's Tongkat for you..

Puisi buat Ibunda

Puisi buat Ayahanda

I watched this and I went WHOOAAAH! She's superbly good and how I wished I can deliver it like her. Inspired sey! Anywhoo, it made me realised there are unfortunate ones out there who have been yearning for the love of their father/mother for so long. They may be putting a strong and jovial front but only Allah knows how much they're really suffering deep inside. Therefore alhamdulillah, I'm grateful for the complete family that I have till now.

Family picnic

2009-01-27T17:31:00.009+08:00

One word to summarise the picnic with ibu's side: ENJOYABLE. And the games are much much more fun than the previous picnic. Not forgetting, there's this one game which was really hilarious and caught the attention of many people. It was the highlight. It's called...

RATU KEBAYA PAGEANT!

check out the smoking hot drop-dead-gorgeous models...

together with Bik Sila and Abg Kamal/ Camel. or shall I say, Camelia?? heehee.the 3 models with their respective make-up artists

And so the sexy models did a catwalk after the photography and Abg Kamal even did this menggoda wave at this Indian guy and he smiled. Dah laa satu-satu pakai terdedah-dedah. ishishish. HAHAHA :D

Then spent hours of night cycling with cousins. By the time it was morning, all that we knew, MUSLE CRAMPS ATTACK!!! The thighs, stomach and butttttt! Every moves we made, just results to an OUCH!

But it felt nice to cycle once in a while especially with my lovelies<3

SPIB yea!

2009-01-24T22:58:00.009+08:00

Okaaaay. Just came back from SPIB and it's still bonding session today. Whoah, I think SPIB 09/10 will be one whole bunch of rocking people. yea baby! So basically we did this personality test to know ourselves better.

So for those who doesn't really know me, here you go...

40% Peaceful phlegmatic

37.5% Popular sanguine

12.5% Powerful choleric

10% Perfect melancholy

I'm a phlegmatic-sanguine!

If you are a phlegmatic-sanguine, your phlegmatic side will dominate. This will result in a greater tendency to introversion (though still less than a melancholic’s or pure phlegmatic’s). You are congenial and cooperative and get along well with most everyone. Because of your emphasis on harmony in relationships, you are peace-loving, conservative, well-balanced, easy-going, with a dry wit and a talent for bringing people together. As an employee, you are compliant, dutiful, orderly, and subdued (and probably were as a child too).

Others may not realize that you have a sanguine side -- at first. It may take a little longer for you to make close friends (because you do not reveal your feelings or thoughts as readily as the more extraverted sanguine-phlegmatic), but once you do, your sanguine nature can assert itself. It will also show up when, for example, you have been so dutiful and compliant about work or school that finally you need to relax and unwind — and now the sanguine, fun-loving side comes out. Or, when you are hanging out with your closest friends.

You are very thoughtful of others, with a knack for empathically putting yourself in other people’s shoes, and value peace and harmony at all times. You also have a great sense of humor and an easy-going manner that makes you a valued friend. You are discouraged by criticism or negativity and need acceptance, support and cooperation in your personal life. You can be deeply wounded by sarcasm, harsh criticism, and anger when it is directed at you. You will not, however, directly fight back but prefer to “turn the other cheek” or redouble your efforts to please.

Phlegmatic-sanguines tend to prefer movies, concerts, or other forms of relaxation that are a bit more spectator-oriented. When they attend parties, they tend to prefer smaller groups, rather than the large social gatherings a pure sanguine enjoys. Like sanguine-phlegmatics, they are very attentive to relationships, to harmony among people. They have deep feelings, hate negative criticism, and become discouraged by negativity in those around them. They are strongly tempted to repress their own wishes in order to preserve peace in a relationship. A stressful situation (especially one that is interpersonally demanding) may cause the peaceful phlegmatic-sanguine to withdraw into solitary television watching, playing computer games, eating or sleeping, instead of directly expressing their negative feelings.

A danger for the phlegmatic-sanguine is to be satisfied with achieving less than what he is capable of -- whether because he tends not to plan for the future or because the more challenging goals seem to be “too much trouble.” A phlegmatic-sanguine will be strongly tempted to quit if he doesn’t think the end product is worth the effort or if he fears he won’t succeed. Perhaps the most besetting difficulties for this temperament mixture are the natural inclination to peace and quiet (tempting one to laziness), a preference to live within the moment (superficiality), and a tendency to make decisions based first on the desire to please someone else or to restore harmony.

In a relationship, the phlegmatic-sanguine is true-blue. He is likely to be a great listener, is willing to put others first, and has excellent mediatory skills. You are a supportive friend and a cooperative employee; however, this can cause you to say “yes” to demands of friends or colleagues, without first analyzing whether this choice is actually the best choice to make.

At times, wanting to either please your good friends or avoid conflict either at home or at work, you may “go with the flow” when in fact a strong stance is necessary. Or, you may avoid a more demanding task or career move in order to maintain harmony and stability. If you find yourself “stuck in a rut” or avoiding making the extra effort required to make an important change, take time out to analyze your goals for the future, realign your priorities to reflect your values and, if necessary, seek spiritual direction to ensure that your values are aligned with God’s will for you.

Maaaaaak, this is cool. I'm awed by the fact that this thing is almost 100% true. And nampak sah, neither do I have those leadership qualities like a powerful choleric nor am I organized or deeply thoughtful like a perfect melancholic. I'M MESSY! But anyway, ustaz said this personality thingy may change over time depending on certain circumstances. Is that good or bad???

Oh yes, and ustaz made me realise how great Allah's creation can be. Subhanallah. There's the reasoning behind this but I'm lazy to explain(: Bye lovelies.

Heart race

2009-01-24T12:00:00.006+08:00

MMM

MasamMissManis

When you disappear, you kept running through my mind.

When you're here, I'm running away from you.

Why oh why???

MJMCS

2009-01-22T13:03:00.004+08:00

I didn't expect this. Really.

Ohmygosh. I super sincerely appreciate this. SAAAAYAAAANG you all and thank you so much.

Do you know what I wished for?

Gold (with Honours) award for this year's SYF MJ malay dance! :D

GO US!

Okay now, time for me to crammmmmm my brain for theory test later.

GO ME!

Special day

2009-01-20T23:04:00.010+08:00

MINAH BUNGA-BUNGA DAY

Reason being, I went to botanic garden with Ms. Wrangler today! Muhahaha. I have a confession to make. I THINK IT'S MY FIRST VISIT THERE THROUGHOUT MY WHOLE LIFE. Kental kan??? And no, it's not a boring place okay, depends on who's your company right?? But if there's Irdayu, there's always fun. -ehem!- Anw, our eyes were being nottie because we were spying on the hottie. Geeeees. It's called the pinkerton syndrome

According to dearest sugarbabe, i'm juon's adik beradik or maybe a juon impersonator. Alahai, cakap je laah, I have what it takes to act in horror film. At least can make some $$$$$ whattss. TEEHEEE.

And there's just this thing that I do. When I laugh hard, I laugh to the ground. Yes it's buruk but that's MY THING!! Okay now, I think I shall put up the prim and proper pictures. And of course, this 'Minah bunga-bunga day' post will be incomplete without a few pictures of flowers.Ohh and on the way home, I met someone whom I haven't seen for aaaaaages.

the person: Irdayu.

irdayu: huh? who? (stop, stare, think) EUGENE HO!!!

He's barely recognizable. Freeeaaaaking tall and i thought he's 18/19. From Far East for lunch to Botanic Garden to Far East again to shop to Bugis street. Now....

Im in REAAAAAAL need of a feet reflexology!

highlights for today

(irdayu turns back to look at someone)

syafiqah: 'ah 'ah. irdayu cair! ehh, mane irdayu??? ohh itu dia! *points to the floor*

(irdayu makan tak betul)

syafiqah: ini baru syafiqah, belum lagi *******.

(syafiqah makan tak betul)

irdayu: ini baru syukriah, belum lagi ******.

irdayu: Saracca stream walk.

syafiqah: nanti jalan terus steam habis...

irdayu: huh??? stream lahh girl, bukan steam.

I Y SYAFIQAH NASIR.

Thanks for the scrapbook.

I Y ALL.

Thanks for the wishes.

I have pretty much about an hour or so before it struck 21012009. Before it's too late, I wish, I wish, I wish upon a star. I wanna be a better daughter, sister, friend and muslim. I hope that I be will not be a disappointment anymore to the ones I love, including dearest late grandfather. Lastly, I want the people around me to be showered with love and happiness because I'm happy when they are!

Dear Allah, I hope it's not too much to ask from You. Please grant my wishes. Amin.

Sakura

2009-01-19T01:55:00.009+08:00

PERANGAI GEMOK DAY

It was a memboncet session for me. Had dinner buffet at sakura with my happypills to celebrate Hazique's and another girl's birthday. Who's that girl? ehem! It's just amazing how I never never fail to crack up whenever I'm with them. Which was why, I call them my HAPPYPILLS.

Ain and I had this wild and hilariously random thought. Something about how we can be really REALLY inter-related in the future and all of us will be a BIGGGG family. Gees. Ain, we can just dream on it laa.

Missing ones: Aisyah, Zahran, Rasyidah

January babies. 200192 & 180192.

MAHA steam

(He asked me to post this. Since I'm nice, I did but there's a better picture below it.)

Loook! Pretty gay boy model in the making! (No offence Zique)
Thanks for today guys. I appreciate it alot. You are one of the greatest bunch of people that I've ever met and I'm grateful for that. I mean it. And I know all of us want this friendship to last until old age (:

Post results

2009-01-13T15:05:00.013+08:00

So I wont give up. No i won't break down. Sooner than it seems life turns around. And I will be strong even if it all goes wrong. When I'm standing here in the dark I'll still believe, SOMEONE's watching over me.

Seen the ray of light and it's shining on my destiny. Shining all the time and I won't be afraid to follow everywhere it's taking me. All I know is yesterday is gone and right now I belong to this moment to my dreams.

It doesn't matter what people say and it doesn't matter how long it takes. Believe in yourself and you're fine. And it only matters how true you are. Be true to yourself and follow your heart.

-Someone's watching over me

I was homing from course and this song played in my mind. This is how I'm feeling regarding my results. So yea, it's all said up there. I'm actually grateful for those improvements I made and teeny weeny bit of happiness there. Tapi I tak boleh buat humans! gerammmnye. Okay and I'm not gonna entertain questions anymore. INFORMATION COUNTER IS CLOSED(: To a few dearies, don't be disheartened aite. Life's like a wheel. Insya'allah everything will turn out beautiful at the right moment. Chin up loves!

Ermmm.

2009-01-11T21:57:00.006+08:00

I'm feeling _ _ _ _ _.

Can you see the answer?

It's there! It spells BLANK. Just that you can't see it(:

for results,

I don't know what to expect or what to feel.

So, I'll just keep it simple.

If it's gooooood, then Alhamdulillah.

If it's baaaaaad, I'll Redha cos there'll be a hikmah.

I believe whatever efforts we put in, Allah will reward us duly.

for putu piring course,

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW NIGHT!

I promise myself that it will not be affected by my results.

Yayness Gayness.

fun and funny days

2009-01-10T16:29:00.012+08:00

Decipher 07012009 because it spells the word

VOILA!Y

Syafiqah and I decided to carry out our 'makcik' plan on this date, which initially we thought was a ridiculous idea. But yea, at last we baked a MAHA SEDAP macaroni with cheese! Irdayu self-proclaim. teehee. However, it was true laa cos even Bambang said so. TRALALALALAS. Not forgetting the craze over a particular malay song and it's video clip. Damn hilarious and we just can't stop humming to the tune. Then off we head for my all-time favourite place for picnic/chillax/photography. THE BEACH! Please note, it's photography and NOT camwhore okay. Everything went smoothly and the weather was simply perrrrfecto! I was grateful and couldn't have asked for more. Ohh, we saw a HANG TUAH man there too. Right girlfriend? =D

Finally homed at around 7pm.

Irdayu: Bye beach! I'll miss you.

Syafiqah: haha. It sounds like bye B**CH! I'll miss you.

Overall, it's an extremely worthwhile day and I LOVE YOU, BABE!

ohhohh!

And dearest goodygoody ms Aishah gave a treat at pizza hut and arcade yesterday. At last I got to fulfill my mission to the arcade. Happy oi. Aizah, pass me those pictures soon aite. Thanks darlings! Love you both(:

SAYA SUKAAA & GUMBIRAAA!

~~Maaaaaak. Happy-happy macam tak bersalah je. Padahal monday results.~~

Ibu and the little nyonya

2009-01-05T22:30:00.010+08:00

So this is my mum's new craze. The beadies thingy. And everytime she make one, I'll be her part-time beads-picker becos it'll be everywhere on the floor. hehs. Look at her colourful pineaples and pink bear, which I call it BB!

You'll know why...

ibu: ibu buat keychain gini semua, ayu tolong jualkan lah.

me: 'ah. tengok dulu. apasal bear tu colour pink, bu?

ibu: hahahahahaha. Itu Bear Babi. Babi kan pink.

me: ya allah.. ade ade aje. kasi nama lah. BB.

ibu: bear strawberry pun boleh jadi.

me: Bear Berry. haha. BB jugak.

ibu: bear ni pink, pakai baju colour hijau. menariknye... bear ibu! ini baru POWER!! hahaha.

Okay, that's my mum for you when she's on her good side of course. So apparently, some friends think that I'm crazy, merepek and always high. Now you know who I got those genes from. *winks* And if you think she's cute, don't mention it in front her cos she'll get all hype up. It had happened when my friend and a few other people told her so. hahahahaha. ~~OOOOPS!~~

IBU LOOOOOOVEY

On another note,

Just now was the final episode of the Peranakan show. The article on Dai Yang Tian in the new paper was very melting indeed. This CHARMING guy was from The Little Nyonya, one of the awesomestest Mandarin drama serial that I had ever watch. A drama which made alot of emotions ran through me and not to mention, I cried on a few episodes. haha. yesyes, gembeng, kental or whatever you call it. I remembered how I went "merepeknye cerita ni!" on the first episode but was desperate to watch it on another occassion. Finally I watched it on a teacher's iPhone after my training at ite simei's sports hall itself. Yea manns, the drama was simply commendable, esp jeanette's acting(:

C cubed

2009-01-05T18:03:00.010+08:00

COTTON CANDY CRUSH
"some crushes are like cotton candy -they look totally yummy and tempting, but when you actually get a taste, there's not much there. Suddenly, you're left with disappointment and no crush. Sometimes, a crush should stay a crush and simply be a delicious daydream. That way, you'll always have someone sweet to think about as you drift off to sleep"
-seventeen magazine

There's a degree of truthfulness in this. How interesting. But how do we know if the sometimes is THAT sometimes? Oh wells, nevermind. Yes Miss Wrangler, this was what I wanted to share with you, girlfriend(:

p.s. And to you, are you just my cotton candy?

Goodbye 2008, Aloha 2009!

2009-01-01T00:01:00.007+08:00

2008 has been A-W-E-S-O-M-E journey for me.
Whatever good or bad times I went through, I believed there are reasons for all that happened. This year, I'm grateful for having to meet my friends again whom I had lost contact for years. I'm also contented to have met a person who is not only nice but also became my motivator, especially when it comes to my Os. And yes, this year was another big stepping stone to success. The O! It was a test of perserverance and determination. I gave my all and did all I could. So I'll leave the rest to fate but of cos hoping that all the effort will pay off. There was also the hard lesson learnt which made me 'woke up' from my mistake and I'm thankful for that. Then, there were opportunities given to me to help those in need. Really eye-opening experiences. Finally, to those whom I had sinned and did wrong, I sincerely apologise.

Let's welcome 2009 with S-M-I-L-E-S.
A new chapter, a new beginning. I hope to be a better Muslim, daughter, sister and friend. May I embrace this year with a whole new meaning with the ones I love. I want to be stronger at heart and overcome future endeavours with confidence. Ohh, and become less soft-hearted too. Seriously, it's a weakness for me. Looking forward to beautiful moments to be kept in my memory box. Not to mention, achieving a good aggregade will be a bonus! To every other person, best wishes in achieving your resolutions. Happy new year and cheerios!

New year eve

2008-12-31T21:10:00.007+08:00

The ES friends spent some time visitting Rasy together at NUH today. Poor her had to spent celebrating her new year there. Rasy dear, hope you'll get discharge soon alrighties?

I've always admired this girlfriend of mine. She has been sick all this while but always show a strong upfront. Only Allah knows how much she has been suffering and how excruciating her pain is. Yet again, she never allow her sickness to get the best out of her. Accepting her fate as it is, doesn't mean she has to give up her will too. In fact, she lives life to the fullest and embrace dearly every opportunity that she has. Darla, come what may, always be strong at heart yea. I know you will cos you always do. We'll be there for you with every hope that you'll get well. Insya'allah(:

After the visit, everyone had individual plans and eventually split up. I tagged along with Ain to town since she had some time to kill while waiting to meet her family there and I'm in no hurry either. Tried to drop by a friend who works at Tangs L3 but he wasn't there. So, too bad friend. Don't say I'm action okay(: Perhaps we're fated not to meet ever again? Finally, went to Toys'r'us! but ohh boy, the TM one is far more fascinating.

Picnic

2008-12-26T00:51:00.014+08:00

Picnic with ES friends was the BOMB!
ohh yea mans(:

Idea originated from Shyieka and I but since I'm busy and Shyieka was away, sweet Rasyidah did the planning. Such a superb organiser I must say. Everything was fine and perfect except for the weather. sobs sobs. After so many days of no rain, it had to rain on wednesday all day long. Nevermind. God's fate. Anyhoos,it did not dampened our spirits and we still had a blast of nonsense and enjoyment. It was just pure laughters that filled the air. There were toooo many hilariously merepek conversations such that I could only remember a short one. My brain is so PUNY. Please do mind me. Hmmm. I wonder how I did for my Os with such a pathetic brain. Okay, thats not the point. No matter what, these chaotic friends of mine are MAHA GEREK!!

Here's the sneak peek

So the next gathering that I'm looking forward to is the celebaration of Hazique's and my birthday in January. Cos our birthdays are only 2 days apart. So yea. Hazique! Jangan tak menjadi okay.

Zulfadli, Hazique, Rasyidah, Hafiz, Farhan, Ain, Zahran, Zhafran, Shyieka

Thanks alot. You are such a rocking bunch of people to be with.

Song quiz

2008-12-22T15:19:00.007+08:00

Tagged by Little Miss Sunshine :D

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating!

How are you feeling today?
Can't help but wait -Trey
Macam paham je lagu ni but I admit it's so true!

Will you get far in life?
The sweet escape -Akon ft. Gwen Stephanie
In order to get far in life, I rather not escape from hardships but overcome them.

How do your friends see you?
Baby love -Nicole scherzinger
Friends, do you see me as baby love?? haha. Ape-ape je.

Will you get married?
Apologize -Timbaland ft. one republic
I apologize for not being able to answer this qn. It's my secret yaw! teehee(:

What is your best friend's theme song?
It's all about you -Mcfly
I like this! Who like it too??!

What is the story of your life?
Bintang -Anima
Just like the stars, my life shines! oh yea man.

What was high school like?
Aku dan dirimu -Ari Lasso ft. Bunga citra lestari
Answer is MAHA out of point.

How can you get ahead in life?
Obsession -Frankie J.
Obsession in pursuing my goals maybe?

What's the best thing about your friends?
Betapa aku mencintaimu -Vagetoz
This doesn't answer the qn but yes, I do love my friends(:

What's in store for this weekend?
Better in time -Leona lewis
Hmmm. Let's wait and see.

Describe your grandparents.
Miss independent -Neyo
Indeed my grandma is independent and strong-willed. As for grandpa, I wish I could get to know him better. I MISS YOU.

How's your life going?
No air -Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown
Oh yes, no air. Busy but happening oi!

What song will they play at your funeral?
Someone's watching over me -Hilary Duff
Hahaha. I think the song suits. Hopefully that someone is meant by Allah. Insyallah(:

How does the world see you?
Kata hati -Tangga
Someone who follows what her heart says. Is it true? Let's ask the world. Who's name here is The World?! haha. ape-ape je, irdayu.

Will you have a happy life?
Memburu impian -Kristal
Of cos I will if I chase my dreams(:

Do people secretly lust after you?
Let me take you there -Plain White T's
There? Where?

How can you make yourself happy?
Butterfly -Melly Goeslaw ft. Andhika
Yessa! Be a butterfly, be FREEEEE and liberated!

What should you do with your life?
Stop & Stare -One Republic
My gosh! I'll get nowhere if I just stop & stare at my life. hah.

What does your mum think of you?
Delaila -Kristal
eh, NO WAY! Im not Delaila, I'm Irdayu. Mum, you gave me that name. Takkan terlupe?
-.- haha. (im so self-entertaining)

What is your deep, dark secret?
Friday night -Lily Allen
This sounds wrong. ish ish. Mengucap oi mengucap! Yellow yellow dirty fellow. hahaha. (wtv eh irdayu) I swear there's nothing on my friday night okay.

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Kembali -Izwan Pilus
Do I have one? hmmmm.

What's your personality like?
11 Januari -Gigi
Totally no link. but! don't remember 11th january. do remember 20th january. *hint hint*

What song will be played at your wedding?
Whatever it takes -Lifehouse
eh! a meaningful song for a couple. IF ONLY I can play it at my wedding. So sweet. Yet again, I'll be terajang if I did. haha! and part of the song goes like this...

"And if you give me a chance. Believe that I can change. I'll keep us together whatever it takes."

Missions to be accomplished

2008-12-19T20:27:00.008+08:00

My to-do list that I die die wished I can complete before getting back results in Jan next year..

numberone: Play at arcade

numbertwo: Go on a HSBC treetop walk

numberthree: Picnic with ES friends

numberfour: Tarianers outing

anyone's up for numberone and numbertwo with me??(:

Haha. I'm having the adrenaline rush already.

'thanks' ah

2008-12-16T23:31:00.006+08:00

ALERT: HEARTPAIN

I'm pierced and only God knows why.

Sometimes I really need that angry vibe. To be mean, fierce and to RAWR!!! However, I can't seem to find the energy to do so and that's my disadvantage at times. Then, I often end up being the biggest loser. Anyhoos, I shan't mention the incident that happened today. Whatever it is, Irdayu will become stronger, better and even more determined after every setbacks she went through. To the one involved, you tried to put me down to make yourself look good in front of others but try harder alrights. I don't give up easily and I won't concede to you.

On another note, I'm grateful to Joy for being there for me today.

Thanks JOY~~ful~~!(:

Haha

Flyers

2008-12-12T19:20:00.004+08:00

IRDAYU IS VERY BRAVE.

Ohh, yes. I think people who gave out flyers are very brave, especially for a shy shy cat person like me. Hehe. Initially, I wasn't supposed to give out the handball flyers but being such a nice girl (ehemm!), I decided to help Pei Er and accompany her. I knew beforehand that I'll be freakingly embarrass but I put that aside. It looks easy peasy but you're wrong okay! Really a test of your patience and only God knows how tough it was for me. Anyway, flyers is the least effective way to publicise something. Seriously. Not many people will even bother to take it and read it first. Some will just avoid as if you have some disease or something. HEARTPAIN oi. However, it's really interesting to see how different people behave in public(:

Farewell

2008-12-11T16:54:00.014+08:00

Cedar Netball

This pic above was actually a personally-decorated board given as a farewell gift to the Cedar Outstanders. PRETTY ISN'T IT? (especially with my name on it. Haha!) Okays, so now I wanna extend my gratitude to the cedar netballers, especially Cedar Blaze, for the heart-warming farewell chalet party. From the games, to our team's video, to bbq and finally the gifts. You had put in much effort to make it work and I really appreciate it. I hope that cedar netball will achieve a greater success than what we had this year. You know you have the potential in yourselves and what's left is to BELIEVE that you can achieve. Undeniably, you are physically strong but don't forget to be mentally strong too alrights. What you've got is what it takes and what is takes is what you've got, yes? There's never an 'I' in a team game, for it has always been a 'we'. Therefore, have each other's back and support one another because the greatest happiness in this game in to win as a whole team. That's why it's known as a team afterall. It has been a wonderful journey for me and getting to know you, cedar netballers, is my pleasure. Lastly, like what we've always said,

"WE MUST, WE CAN, WE WILL, CEDAR!"

(cedar colours okay! hehe)

Cedar Outstanders

From a sports kukuhead with no sports background in Sec 1 to what I am now, all of you had contributed to a positive change in my life. Something which I'll remember for a lifetime. I wanna thank this beautiful bunch of people for teaching me the meaning beyond the words endurance, perserverance, trusts, confidence and most importantly, teamwork. We played not only with our skills but also with our heart, our passion. At times, we'll have our differences, conflicts, misunderstandings and what nots but we knew that we'll sort them out eventually. I'll miss the way we support each other so that we'll have that drive to push our abilities further -the constant "Jia you", "C'mon everyone", "We can do this" and "Keep going". Since lower sec, we had always aimed to achieve something to make Cedar proud before we graduate. Never afraid to dream. And this year, we had proved to many people and ourselves that we had what it takes to be national top 4. Throughout these 4 years, we had cried, laughed, crapped, get scoldings and played together. Such inevitable memories of going through thick and thin. No matter what happens in the future, we know that we'll shine through for we are the OUTSTANDERS.

Cedar MLDDS

I'm such a wonderfool bloodyfool okays. To think that I lost the pictures of the gorgeous cupcakes Farah made yesterday for farewell. When I was about to transfer from phone to comp, suddenly POOF! They're gone and what's left is a sad Irdayu. The cupcakes were REALLY PRETTY okay! and adding on to that, there were initial letters of our names on it. Since I'm unable to post a pic of the cupcake, I put up a tarian's pic because we didn't take a pic of MLDDS-ers as a whole. Anyhoos, thanks to Nana, Farah, Junie and other MLDDS girls for the awesome and sweet farewell. I must say it's well-planned and I especially love the amazing race and water bomb. Girls, don't be afraid to step out of your comfort zone alrights? Go all out and do whatever you've got to do if you think whatever you are doing is for the best of MLDDS. You may just be a society club but you deserve to shine too. As cliche as it may sounds, when there's a will, there's a way yes? I wish you all the best for both dance and drama. You'll always have the seniors' support for any competitions you're in.

To my Sec4s and jawatankuasa friends, I thank you for making my experience in ML an fantastic one. The sessions where we danced our hearts out, the games and the gossips. haha. I remembered how some of us used to call each other by names such as monyet mcmuffin, platypusy spaghetti, badak burger, lipas lollipop and etc. Looking back, I think that it's cute indeed. KAN??!(: And yes, for us too, we finally performed a PROPER dance this year as Cedar tarianers before we left Cedar. Thank God. Nevertheless, the Cedar ML drama girls are awesome too, clinching the 1st Runner up. I guess it's kinda beautiful ending afterall. Finally, I want to apologize to you people if I were a lousy secretary and also for my inconsistent attendance due to netball commitment. Sorry again yea. I'm honoured to have the opportunity to work with you. Best wishes for future endeavours!

Geddit??

2008-12-09T23:14:00.012+08:00

I'M VERY HAPPY :(

Dear Allah, please reboot my emotions.

I like!

2008-12-03T19:53:00.008+08:00

MY CAMARADERIE
Babe, thanks for sweating out with me on our badminton 'date'. And yes, we laugh,rest and merepek around more than we play badminton. Gees, laughing is more tiring than playing the sport itself, huh? But hey, I think laughing is an effective excercise for the stomach muscles, abs? or whatever muscles which were affected. Okay, I'm out of point.

Basically, I really enjoyed today! I'll shall end off with your addiction for the day,

"Tidakkah engkau tahu sayang, betapa ku sayang padamu..." -Mael

what's up next for me?

team's sleepover tomorrow, followed by netball farewell chalet the day after. double the yes! it's the holidays and i'm not going anywhere for vacation BUT i'm still a 'lil happygoober! maybe God foresee the activities lining up ahead of me and that's why I didn't get a part-time job. hoho :D however, i need $$$$$!

p.s: pieces of my heart are severely missing my dearest friends whom i didn't get to meet :'(

Behind the scenes

2008-12-03T18:34:00.010+08:00

Suddenly felt like posting those pics because I just got them. Kinda backdated but hey, who cares aniway. These pics were taken behind the scenes after much make-uping people for the Cedar Musical -Maid in Singapore. In which, those Cedarians and staffs ought to receive thumbs-up for their spectacular performance. Seriously, hundreds of hours of rehearsals but only one hour of performance and yet they put their heart and soul into every moment of it despite their exhaustion. Needless to say, their commendable effort resulted to a successful Cedar's very own first musical.

Okay, and pics above features Aishah and Kak Yaty who made my day on that particular day with much kekekness. Ohh and I personally think that Kak Yaty is supremely nice and coolest staff that you can have in the school. heh(: Unfortunately, I can only remember only two out of the many hilarious conversations that day which roughly goes like this..

KY: ehh, I expected the hongkong noodle to be the stir-fry one. the mee pun lain sei.
aishah: itu mee ape eh?
(KY and aishah started guessing the different types of noodles for a some time and finally...)
KY: oh, I know laa! it's mee-sai. (misai)

(aishah was talking about sth)
KY: huh??
me: aik, you duduk beside her pun tak boleh dengar?
KY: a'ah, nak buat kueh tat.
(aishah and i pause to figure out what's the link)
aishah: aku tak paham. takde link.
me: ohhhhhh. lerr, aku paham. kau korek telinga dah jadi inti kueh tat.

YEAH!

2008-11-28T13:10:00.005+08:00

Thanks Panther.

I'm infected by your smile virus too.

SMILE :D

Could this be love

2008-11-27T00:19:00.004+08:00

If you only knew what I've been going through. Waiting and wanting you. Could this be love? How, tell me how will I know? Will my heart make me believe it so ? Or can I trust the way I feel? If you could read my mind,you see how hard I've tried. Still I can't decide.

If you only knew what I've been going through. Waiting and wanting you. Could this be love ? Oh, tell me could this be love?

Do you know if it's true that real love lasts a lifetime?

Does it shine like the stars up in the sky?
And do you know if you can fall for just a moment, is a moment for all time?

Why, why am I so unsure is that love knocking at my door or the sound of my beating heart.

If you could read my mind, you know I just can't hide what I feel inside.

Oh, tell me could this be love

A simple sentence yet meaningful

2008-11-20T22:00:00.009+08:00

" Whatever it is in the future, you and I
have had a friendship in this lifetime"
-Evelynn Wong

This sentence may be a simple one which was given by my fellow teammate as a friendster comment. Yet, it has a deep impact on my soul which really set me thinking for very long.

Often, we are afraid of losing our friends for fear that loneliness may engulf us or the memories spent together will diminish just like that. In the course of life, people will come and go. As much as we do not want them to, it is beyond our control as it is fate that decides. Some friends are just passer-bys bacause your life paths happen to cross whereas some will walk with you on the same journey of life, through thick and thin.

The point is, time is not the measurement to value the friendship you share with someone else. It is the quality that matters. How often do we treasure the opportunity of friendship with someone whom we first knew as strangers and slowly became friends? If friends value each other and strong bonds are shared, I feel that there shall not be any regrets even if those friends head for separate ways some day. Instead, it should be the feeling of honour and pride that fill our hearts as we leave that friendship and wish them the best. No doubt that the memories, no matter how bitter or sweet they are, may be gone as lives go on. However, it is the impact that those friends have on us and how they change our lives at some point of time, that will remind us of them. At least we will remember that that friendship once existed in our lifetime regardless of what the future may hold for each individual.

Is it true? No?

Well, that's only my take. Referring to good company of friends of course.

I think I would like to know other people's opinions. So friends, do fill me in yea(:

Okay, this is so unlike me.

I thought I'm tooo kental to have this post up here. Hahs:D

Busy busy holiday

2008-11-19T11:44:00.014+08:00

OH MY!
Holidays have never been so busy for me.
However, I'm liking it rather than slacking at home and be a lazybummer.
Which is, BOOORIIING!

First training for handball has been an awesome experience. I mean, it's nice to be exposed to a new sport and yea, I've LOTSLOTSLOTS of skills to learn. Thanks to Shyieka who introduced it to me. And yes, about this friend of mine, many people asked if we're sisters cos we look alike. Which we don't think we actually do. We're tired of explaining to people that we're not blood related and that we're just very good friends until we only went "EWWWWW!" as a reply, jokingly of course. Anyhoos, back to handball, coping with the first training was hard because:
1) Muscles are very superbly RUSTY, resulting to muscle aches until now. OUCH!
2) Stamina is at point zero.
It's expected yea. It has been months since I last trained. Sheesh!

Next, I'm glad that umpiring course is shortened from 6 days to only 2 days. TERRIFIC!(: yes mafia, I'm going for netball umpiring course and not putu piring course. Listen carefully please. I doubt putu piring courses even exist btw. (:Haha. Please don't think that umpiring course is an easy peasy job to do. It's reaaaaly scaaaary. Well, that's for me at least. Ohh on another note, I'M REALLY REALLY MISSING NETBALL TRAININGS ALOT AND THE PEOPLE TOO:(

Cedar musical make up, holidays with family, outings, Outings, OUTINGS with friends and hmm.. let's see what's more.

Currently, I'm contemplating with 2 things:
"Should I or should i not work part time?"
"Should I or should i not enroll for dance course?" (which i initially thought of hip hop but malay dance is fine too)

ohhwellllss, *SHRUGS*.
Let's see how it goes aites.

It's over. Happy time!

2008-11-06T11:16:00.011+08:00

Hellooo dearies.
My blog is revived(:
Good news? no?

ONE.
Olevels is almost over with only science MCQ left next week.
Overall, I don't know if I'll ace it all but I gave my best shot though.
So yea, tawakkal alright Irdayu.

Friend's friend: "Eh, your friend doesn't have a house uh? 24hrs at macs only."
Cousin: "Asal tak overnight kat Macs sekali. Pasang tent uh"
Haha(:
Olevels is gone for good but I'll miss the crazy mugging at Macs,
the foolery and kecohness of course.
Zul's chaotic clan are the kecoh noise makers but they're freakking smart asses.
A fact which made two girls irritated by their friends.

TWO.
MISS WRANGLER!
I'm grateful that Os gave me the opportunity to catch up with a friend whom I've
lost contact with for 4 years.
It doesn't feel weird but in fact, we got along pretty well.
Some highlights: Budak uni, Wink, Bumblebee, Striped shirt guy, Whisper,
Little John, Monster girl, Guy who waved frantically with slit eyes, Woman man
Okay, and many more which I cant remember.

THREE.
Hellooo Mafia.
It's good to have you back after what seems like ages.
I mean it, seriously.
Know what?? You're ever suuuuper positive about me rather than my ownself.
So much faith huh?
Well, I wanna thank for your constant motivation AND for reappearing again.
I thought I would have lost another great person in my life.

FOUR.

I realised I didn't have any post on raya.

To sum it up, I'll just post a few pics from raya outing with aisha, athirah & azrina.

And Athirah, you've yet to get your pics from me.Pantun dua baris:

Alah bisa tegal biasa,

Budak atas ini biol sentiasa.

Five.
Now, I have a few irritating friends.

Michael COUGH, Aaron FLU, Ryan FEVER.

Sedapnye nama diorang. kan? kan?

Haha. Irdayu sakit-sakit pun masih gila rupanya.

Alhamdulillah, they only came towards the end of Os.

But still, I wanna enjoy hols without 'em!

IRDAYU MISS MANY MANY PEOPLE!

IRDAYU MISS PEOPLE MANY MANY!

LIBERATION

2008-11-06T10:26:00.006+08:00

LIBERATION!

and to show how liberated I am, let the pics say it all..

Obviously, it was my kental idea and Athirah willingly became my partner :D

Thanks darling, love you babe!

Initially, we wanted to have lunch at bugis after HMT paper.

BUT! Sesat all the way till Shenton Way Int. I swear it's a freaaaaaky place -.-

Ramadhan Updates

2008-09-22T19:45:00.007+08:00

Alhamdullillah.
This year is a better Ramadhan for me as compared to last year's. It amazed me how I managed to view Ramadhan from a different perspective and learnt alot of lessons at the same time. Indeed, Ramadhan is a month of strength and not weakness. Sometimes it made me feel how hard it is being others who are less fortunate. We can never knew until we interact with them and experience their situations. Despite their difficult situations, they gather strengths and are still grateful to HIM that they were given a life to live. However, the far more fortunate ones, like us, keep complaining about life. Does it take one to feel serious hardships before he/she starts thinking of HIM and appreciate His greatness for whatever HE gave us? I was just wondering. Some people asked, "Why are you going for all these things? Your Olevel is around the corner. You should be studying." I knew they meant well, rooting for me and wanting me to succeed. However, I was thinking how often do I get to come across this holy month and do all these things. I mean, these opportunities are too good to miss.

R-squared (Ramadhan Rocks)
This was the first event which starts the ball rolling. Undeniably, it's a thirst quencher. Not to the throat but to the soul, of cos. Overall, it was a fantastic experience. All the guidance and reflections made me think whether I have been carrying out my responsibility properly to HIM all these years. Oh yes, and the activity which impact me most for this camp was 'Stoning the Habit' whereby we wrote down negative stuffs that we didn't want on a pebble and threw it into the sea. I also appreciated the strong bond that we built among the participants during this 2 days 2 nights camp. We got along well and were there for each other. Currently, I'm missing these darlings: Khairunnisa, Syahidah, Hanin, Annisa, Isdiyannah, Farah, Atiqah, Amirah, Mardiyanah, Nira, Mira, Ain, Hanis, Rhaudah

The rockers.Still getting to know each other.'Throw Dosa Here'->20 centsKhairunnisa and Isdiyannah. The sweet and the outgoing girls respectively.Camp besties & crime-partners in action:)Faci Ain (cheerleader)Faci Nira Awesome rainbow witnessing us stoning the habit.

Qiyam

It was rather an exposure for me. Shyieka and I agreed that sleeping in the mosque was heavenly, as in it's a nikmat. With a short 2 and a half hours of sleep that we had, we woke up feeling refreshed and energetic like as if we slept for 8 hours or so. Apparently, we woke up late and did not qiyam (which was supposed to be the main purpose) as no one woke us up because we were soundly sleeping at a corner where hardly people can see or walk pass. With pairs of eyes darting on us, we feel like star karats as others were already done with their food when we just reached the eating place for our sahur. hehs. The highlight of this was getting to meet beloved kak shara after so many eeyore months.

Jom Ittihad

This was another event which left me with no regrets. I am so grateful that Mira asked me along. Although it felt weird that I was the youngest there (as it was a SP's and TP's event), i'm glad that i managed to put it aside as it was the main purpose of the event that matters. The major highlight was getting to clean houses of people who are far more less fortunate than us. I got along with Sharifah and Rufi during that event as we were assigned to clean Cik Aminah's house. Which then we need extra help from Atiqah due to lack of time. It's not only the great sense of satisfaction that we get, it's the love too. Seeing through their eyes, we can see that some of this feeble and frail people suffered so much. But yet, I think that they are even stronger than us, physically and emotionally. I totally love cik aminah- the way she melata and accidentally call us monkeys climbing up her bed to clean the ceiling, the way she react when being teased abt Dr Faishal) She's a lovely and wonderful lady. I've tootally no regrets attending such events even if i'm in midst of preparation for Os(:

This year is the best Ramadhan so far. Terima kasih, ya allah.

Insya'allah. I hope for a better Ramadhan next year.

With Love, Irdayu.

R-squared!

2008-09-05T15:39:00.003+08:00

Harapan Ramadhan

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan

Kali ini penuh makna

Agar dapat kulalui

Dengan sempurna

Selangkah demi selangkah

Setahun sudah pun berlalu

Masa yang pantas berlalu

Hingga tak terasa ku berada

Di bulan Ramadhan semula

Puasa satu amalan

Sebagaimana yang diperintahNya

Moga dapat ku lenturkan

Nafsu yang selalu membelenggu diri

Tiada henti-henti

Tak ingin ku biarkan Ramadhan berlalu saja

Tuhan pimpinlah daku yang lemah

Mengharungi segalanya dengan sabar

Kita memohon pada Tuhan diberikan kekuatan

Ku merayu pada Tuhan diterima amalan

Selangkah demi selangkah

Dengan rahmatMu oh Tuhanku

Ku tempuh jua

I'm off for R-squared in 2 hours and will be back on sunday.

Having a super power adrenaline rush now cos one thing for sure, I bet I'l be having an awesome time(:

Notepad of my heart

2008-09-03T15:48:00.004+08:00

Yikes! I wanna smack u down.

2008-08-23T22:04:00.009+08:00

Sometimes you must realise that what's past is past and it had gone for good.

We're the history of each other now. Get that in your head.

1) Why are some people so perangai and they never realised it?

Ohmygod. My birthday wish was sincere and I didn't have any hard feelings then. If I were insincere, I could have jolly well not wished you. Yes, I'm sorry that I can't get you any present, never did I think, but I wished you the best and I told you that I hoped that HE blesses you and show you a better way, a better life. I THINK YOU NEED IT COS EVERYONE DOES. Fine, being the person that you are, you said you don't need it and asked me to take it back. You claimed that I was insincere.

Do you live in my heart? No, you don't. So how could you claimed that?

2) Why are some people so ego and they never change?

Following that, you said you don't need people with my kind of attitude in your life. Then why do you still contact when I told you not to? You asked me if I want to know why you said that. I didn't reply that msg because it was irrelevant. I didn't need to know why. I know as a matter of fact that there are other people who appreciate me better(: Adding on to that, I find it to be an irony. I already realised that I don't need a person like you in my life months ago. You shattered parts of my life. I bet you don't know that as you think so highly of yourself. Nevertheless, I'm the massive destroyer of my own life for letting you do so. Therefore I'm to be blamed too. It's okay though. I've already picked up those shattered pieces and life's better like this. I guess evrything happens for a reason. HIKMAH.

However, please chuck your ego away and be down-to-earth. An advice from a person of your past.

To the person involved:

I don't know if you'll read this but I doubt so. However, if you happens to, I wanna express my heartfelt apology for all my wrong doings to you, in the event of this coming months of ramadhan and syawal. I know you have your positive sides and I believe have mine too but we just don't get along. Perhaps we're best as strangers. Let it be this way as it'll cos lesser damage to each other's life, yes? Regardless of everything, we shall still have the basic respect for each other as a person. We're saudara Islam afterall, so kene peace(:

On a different note:

OH HAPPY WORLD,

Where are you?

I Miss You

I need your happy pills.

One step at a time

2008-08-22T19:48:00.004+08:00

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you've always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste

But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

You believe and you doubt

You're confused, you got it all figured out

Everything that you always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours

If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer

But there's no end in sight

When you need to find the strength

It's the faith that makes you stronger

The only way we get there

Is one step at a time

Take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

Prelim & national day

2008-08-11T23:36:00.007+08:00

it seems that mondays always give me an urge to post. idk why.

okay, I have 34 mins more.

PRELIMSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Countdown: abt 9 hours.

how effing fantastic is that? you tell me.

study.study.study

sleeping disorder.eating disorder.brain disorder

& many more to come.

everything has turned upside down.

C'MON BABY, SHOOT ME.

On a second note,

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

I know i'm late at wishing this.

but better late then never, yes?

Cedar's massive choo-choo train was AWESOME. like totally hyperactive people(:

hey, i wanna watch the ndp encore telecast laa. boooos.

didn't get to watch muslihah performed and the other performances as well.

sorry darla.

nevertheless, celebrating at ECP was fantastic too.

fooood, games, new friends, old friends, cousins & happening things

AND YOU! heart leaps.

you're cute & you shall be added to my earcandy list. meltssssss.

omg. I'm smiling. oh god, it's not the right time.

not now. not now. pretty please.

tell me why earcandies are LOVELIER than eyecandies?

any answers, anyone?

apuyuki signing off.

ahhas. learning the wrong stuffs from cousins. nyehh!

The bright side of life.

2008-08-04T02:21:00.008+08:00

'An abundant and happy life blesses this gifted person'

And so, my weekend was a splendid wrap up for the whole mind-retardation week. Special thanks to a couple of people who made it happen. Even if I know I'm gonna start the week with Monday school blues in 4 hours time, I'm gonna say:

"Hey, it's alright. You're stronger now to overcome this week with more determination."

If need be, I'll reassure myself every week right till the week when O level comes knocking on my door. However, in the midst of all the busyness and hardcore state I'm in, I'm still contented with life as it is. For one reason, I actually realised that I'm surrounded by lovely people who are constantly rooting for me with the little words of reassurance and encouragement, which means so much to me. (Given that I'm such a pathetic girl who is highly doubtful of her capabilities.) It boosts my strength but doesn't give me hope because hope is just something which illude me into achieving my aim but is never there in the first place. Having more strength each time is just what I need to bring myself to a greater level despite all the difficulties. As such, I feel blessed and gifted. I believed that for every individual who believe in His will, he or she may feel this too.

Conclusion: She's contented and grateful for the beautiful life of hers. Thanks to Allah Almighty.

FLY ME TO THE MOON AND LET ME

PLAY AMONG THE STARS(:

GAAAAH!

2008-07-31T20:45:00.008+08:00

IM A PIECE OF ____________.

(Fill in the blanks)

With 2 hours of squeezing my brain juices for results & conclusion in the library in the afternoon, it finally marks the end of coursework B. My conclusion is like pure CRAP but i don't care. Anyway, I had handed it in so the rest I'll tawakkal. And now, I'm suppose to be doing coursework A but i accidentally left my thumbdrive in library after doing coursework B just now. All the freaking important documents are inside:/ I have had enough with courseworks and the mock papers are not making it better.

tell me why im 'pandai' gilaaa macam nie.

super hopeless state right now.

know what?

I'm gonna need 2 MAJOR help on:

1) how to write fast.

2) how to type fast.

That's how kentalans I can be.

Sounds spastic but im serious. Anyone willing to help?(:

You'll be greatly appreciated. Tak tipuuu

Note to ppl: Not all cedarians are clever. I'm that exceptional one. Don't give me those sarcastic remarks or looks cos somehow I know I'll make it through. Insya'allah

geek

2008-07-15T19:59:00.006+08:00

brain's busted!

I believe that explains the picture below.

My stress-reliever entertainment.

Damn, I look horrid but oh wells.

Why oh why, I'm indulging myself with unglam pictures recently.

Perhaps God knows why and I'm loving it yo!

bitch sey school.

So this is what Olevel life feels like huh? The stress, Stress, STRESS is giving me the jitters. With every individual, working their butts off to achieve what they aim for. It's either you score, or you'll be out of the game. Punched with regrets. Those shitty academic results for the past years is the only thing that's holding me back from going for the DSA trials. it's like a total retardation of my confidence boost. In the midst of moments like this, sometimes the encouragement and support that's needed most is just not there. But hey. I'm not gonna break now. 'Cos somewhere in me, I believe I can do it. I'll go head on and create that little miracle again. Lighting the faces of those beloved ones, painting those smiles and welcoming back those euphoric feelings.

Yes I can, Yes I can.

oh Allah Almighty, I seek Your help.

Beyond my name

2008-07-06T19:23:00.006+08:00

Hrmmsh. It's kinda true. But I'm unsure about some of them.

How about you people tell me. Alrightsss?

Credits to Shyieka.

Thanks alot babe. Very sweet of you. It's much appreciatedY

Happy pill:D

2008-07-06T19:22:00.007+08:00

LOVE YOU KIDDO!

I'm truly grateful that He grant me a friend like you. I hoped that the talkings we had about life and people around us managed to alleviate some of the heartaches aye. Thanks for all those understandings and spending awesome time with me. I swear I miss having you in the same class. BOOOO. My ever so kekek friend who made me roll on the floor and laugh, Laugh and LAUGH. But it's okay, may the friendship lasts forever yes? Insya'allah. Remember, $$$= SHOP SHOP SHOP. Soon!

Note to everyone:

I Y JUMP SHOTS!

.Random.

Express Yourself Day(:

2008-07-05T22:36:00.007+08:00

EXPRESS YOURSELF DAY!

Yesterday was a BLAST.

Initially, I was sitting on the fence about that idea. And finally, I can't believe I did it. Jeng Jeng! On that day, I find myself wearing a bathrobe. Yes, a BATHROBE. It was a class thingy. Putting my paisehness aside, I must say I'm quite daring to walk around the school in it, looking totally absurd. Gees. No doubt, it was kinda unglam compared to other Cedarians in thier tiptop outfits. But hey, I don't give a damn yo. Showing my unglamness is not an everyday thing anyway(:

Thanks to Rasyiqah for the bathrobe!

Erm.. Maybe?

2008-06-29T23:19:00.005+08:00

Maybe equates to Uncertainty

Why oh why
My mind is occupied with too many 'WHAT IFs'

DAMN

What if all those somnolency does not pay off?

What if I can't draw a blank about wretched pasts?

What if the pieces of broken friendship is not fixed?

What if I'm not being my usual self without me even realising it?

& the list goes on..

Aghast.
Neurotic.

Birthdays

2008-06-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday dearest Dad & Shyieka!

I Y YOU BOTH.

Promises

2008-06-24T18:14:00.009+08:00

"Promises are like the full moon. If they are not

kept at once, they diminish day by day"

Often, we find ourselves hooking pinkies as a sign of promise. People say that the promise given was a necessity of the past, the word broken is a necessity of the present. It feels so much like a lie that people tell you yet it maybe the truth at times. Actually, it is not a necessity unless we allow it to be. Then why are there still broken promises? Perhaps humans' nature and feelings has taken a toll on us causing us to make the wrong choice and thus break promises.

"I'll be there for you"

No doubt that the words are easily spoken. However the sincerity of these words differs. Things get unfortunate when we were not given the chance to honour our words although we were really sincere. We wish that we are that person who cares for someone and share his/her weals and woes, like how it used to be. It really hurts deeeeeeep down inside but maybe as people move on, their hearts are blinded to us at a point of time. All that we can do is to pray for their best and remind ourselves that they don't owe their lives to us yes?

Mixed up

2008-06-20T20:34:00.006+08:00

1. Picnic with cousins

Mood: Excited

2. Brother's hospitalised

Mood: Sad

3. Overall

Mood: Confused

-shall make the best out of this-

p.s. i want to see my ear candy.

Bro OH Bro

2008-06-16T21:14:00.009+08:00

HEY YOU.

Hope the injury that you are going through will heal real soon. Just endure and fight against the pain alrights. I don't mind being your 'personal assistant' actually. Haha, quite fun. Fetching you stuffs now and then, getting you bread at two in the morning, pushing you around etc. But yea, I'll pray for your wellness because seeing the excruciating pain that you expressed is kind of torturous. Not hearing your harsh tone and whatever merepek you have is freaking weird. Maybe it's blessing in disguise yes? Everything happens for a reason. It's time for you to realise that he loves you equally and it's just that he shows it differently. He cares for you kay.

Brace up(:

pssst. I love the mat bunga-bunga.

Change

2008-06-09T12:48:00.011+08:00

"Nothing endures but change"

Change takes place during each and every moment of our lives.

How many of those changes are good ones? Not that there aren't any but for the bad ones, we often say that if we can turn back the hands of time, we want to change how things were then. What's the point? Even if there's a time machine for us to change things of the past, there'll be something in the future that we'll hope to change again. And the chain goes on. Of course, everyone wants good changes in life but shit happens all the time and they're beyond our control. Perhaps it's life's demand that we change to overcome HIS tests as we move on. However, it is disappointing to know that in the midst of changes, some people tends to forget the most important people in their lives. What's more disappointing is that we're often lack of courage to make one realises what's wrong.

Helpless.

Survey

2008-06-07T10:01:00.003+08:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I've non currently(: But in any case, should i be betrayed, i'll forgive, forget and move on. What's the point of bearing grudges anyway right? I'm hurting myself if i do that. For what sey.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Another chains of dreams that come through and will not break. Then it will be an everlasting happiness which i can just dream on it.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Anything goes as long as it is memorable and I get to celebrate it with my beloved ones.

#4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
a) I wanna go umrah again and ask for lots and lots of forgiveness from Him.
b) Org2 miskin. Kalau tak, macam tak baik gitu. Jahats.
c) Go on holidays that will give me a peace of mind. Nothing else but the nature and myself. best kan?!

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
Someone who can guide me and who has a sincere heart. Sincerity counts alot. I believe with a sincere love, comes understanding, trust etc.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I think it's loving someone. It will give a sense of satisfaction. However, a two-way love will be extraordinary and the most blessed thing that can ever happen.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love to change for the better?
For as long as I can hold. There'll be a point when I'll snap out of it and come to realise that I shan't hold back forever to wait for that someone to change. I need to go on cos there are other things around me that matters too although i admit that it's hard to even start moving on. Cheydeybah! Ayu dah belajar dari past experience.

#8. If the person you secretly love is already attached, what would you do?
Perhaps I'll just be friends with him and be happy for him. Cinta bukan memiliki. Familiar kan? Faham2 okay.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Absolutely there is! Someone's ruining my june holidays and messing up with my life. I wish to screw her up. Muahahaha. SERIOUSLY.

#10. What is the worst you've ever felt these days?
Living life like a plain jane which leads to reminiscing the past when I'm alone.

#11. What cheers you up the fastest?
a) The beach.
b) Talking to the people i trust and who understands.
c) B I G heart-shaped lollipops =D

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Successful but not career-minded. Already a wife or becoming one, around that age. Haha.

#13. Who is currently the most important people to you?
a) Family -of course laa kan. After all, I know i can count on 'em no matter what happens.
b) Friends -they're the fun and thrills of my life. no doubt that there's roller coaster rides in friendships but i hope that's what that makes the bond stronger.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She always brightens up almost everyone that's around her. A strong-willed girl, though i think she may not realised it at times and very determined too.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Money can't buy happiness. And for me, happiness is to have a complete family of my own and be with the people i love. So i'll go with married but poor(:

#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Look into the mirror. (I know, I know. You may think it's vanity right?) But! I'll tell myself, " Ayu, it'll be a good day today". Even if I know that there are certain plans up ahead that will turn out bad for me.

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
Like what lili posted, which I totally agree. Virginity, NO! Other than that, as in affairs of the heart, character, effort etc., insya'allah i'll do the best and what's best.

#18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I won't know who to pick if i don't know who are the two people right? apedahh question nie. Ask them to scissors paper stone laa. Teehee. Okay, on a serious note. I'll see who's closer to becoming my ideal lover, which you can refer back to question #5.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
Hmm. I don't expect them to be there for me always. It's good enough if I have friends whom I can feel comfortable being around with and pour out my feelings to.

Yay! finally done(;
Cheers.

outstanders' farewell

2008-05-22T21:25:00.009+08:00

Nana-nana Nana-nana

Hey hey hey
Goodbye

Farewell was incredibly awesome and finally Sec 4 netballers stepped down officially :(

Juniors, thanks for all the preparation and your hardwork, especially Cedar Blazers. Though it was a simple event, I knew one thing for sure that it was memorable. The part I love most was what I call the 'Song Telematch' between Sec 4s and juniors. It was really sweet and deep down, you really touched my heart(: I'm sure that you'll bring cedar netball soar to a greater height and make us proud. Best wishes for your future endeavours. Cheerios!

-To Cedar Outstanders-
Dear team,
Looking back I realised how fast time flies. From strangers, we got to know each other and formed a whole new team. Through thick and thin, we are always there for each other no matter what happens. Undoubtly, we can never run away from facing misunderstandings and conflicts within the team but everytime we solved them, our bond became stronger. People, you are my pillar of strength. Without realising it, there were so much thing that you taught me as a person and I want you to know that you mean so much to me. Regardless of the scoldings and negative perspective of people upon us, we always know that nothing can bring us down. We wanted to make our mark for our last year in Cedar and bring glory to the school. Finally, we did it by achieving the National Top 4. Four years of friendship and we'll still be counting on alrights. LOVES!

C(See) what?

CEDAR!

C(See) what?

CEDAR!

We must. We can. We will.

CEDAR!

And there are supposed to be more pictures, right Blazers?

Will be uploaded soon.